I hold you

When your body feels estranged
impoverished from messages of wisdom finding your way
and it aches to direct words of praise in its direction
I hold you

When you finally have the courage to let someone hold your heart
surrendered and bare-chested saying ‘I am yours my love’
and he screams words of hell that break your place of safety in two
I hold you 

When anxiety washes over you
a veil covering the joy of your existence 
and the course your life was on feels foggy, frightening and blurred
I hold you

And when you re-claim the pleasure and guidance of your sensuality
I hold you
And when you alchemize the abuse into gold and inner-strength
I hold you
And when you ground yourself in a sovereignty so solid, it can not break
I hold you

Whether you break in numbness or pain
Whether you rise up in power and bliss
I love you equally

I had to learn to love myself that same way
Humbly showing up o whatever turn life took me on
Ever deciding; I will show up. I will not be a victim. I will choose the path of power. I will choose the path of love. I will never close off my heart. This is my way.

Just like other women did before me
and always will
I hold you